"Don't ever show your weakness to others"
I believe that most of people in this world have simple phobias as i have some of them, either. Sometimes i'd like to show one of my simple phobia to someone even if they have no close relationship with me. Though one of my classmate have told me "Don't ever show your weakness to others", if i tell something about my weakness, i feel i'm safety.
Once, i have met a girl who suddenly told me that she has a very serious social phobia. At that time i was sitting on the beachfront of resautant and lookingover the sea. I met her just 1 minute ago which means she is just stranger. What i knew about her was she is from my country and she has been working as a teacher for alomost 8 years. Followed by the fact, she is a teacher was threw me in confussion. If she got a social phobia, how she could teach students for 8 years? Then she pointed her sunglasses which i couldn't even noticefied she wore it. she said "i can't go anywhere without sunglasses."
But how could she teach with wearing sunglasses in the class? Of course she could not.
She said it's completely different. she could teach in the class but she couldn't talk in outside without sunglasses.
During the year as a teacher in Thailand, i surely understood what she told me.
Yes. I also have a simple social phobia. But i could teach very well in the class. But if i'm a just student, it's too hard. Specailly when i have to present my view. I could hear my heartbeat, i'm getting sweat, i couldn't hear what other people say. Sometimes i just want to leave from there. (But i believe that this weakness of mine is getting better now.) Then how could she and could i teach without any difficulty? It was because of the confidence that there was nobody who knows better than her about the subject. I think that she might have thought she have to be perfect all the time. She might could not bear what people say to her. she probably got a shame if she couldn't answer of question or more. Sometimes i think, if we show our weakness to other, it might be helpful. So, of this reason, i'd like to show my weakness to others. Specially where i could not visit again, whom i'm not supposed to meet again
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References
Hartmann, P. (2007). Quest 2 Reading and Writing, (2nd. ed.). New York: McGraw-Hill.
Yu Nil,
ReplyDeleteReading your post, which is courageous in its honesty, reminded me of a post I wrote as an example for my level 9 regular class just this morning - "Peter on Peter".
I am sure that you are not alone in feeling anxious at times in our class, where I try to create an atmosphere that is friendly and encouraging, but also challenging in similar ways to a class at a good university, where critical speaking, listening, reading and writing skills are essential.
Hello? peter? how is your weekend??
ReplyDeletei've just been to Japanese library in Sukhumvit Soi 21;;. And i think i'll be at home tomorrow.
hum...Sorry, i couldn't get a time for review and proofread as i'm usually staying in hostel which means i have to share this desktop with other volunteers.
Anyway, you are a shy person!!! aren't you.
Yea, i'd like to try to challenge. But it's not so easy as you saw me in our class;;
i'll be getting better.^^ thanks. peter.
See you on Monday!
Yu nil; you post "i'd like to show my weakness to others. Specially where i could not visit again, whom i'm not supposed to meet again" in a topic to show your phobia so you think we can not meet agin,can we?
ReplyDeletehahahaha. i'll think about that.^^
ReplyDeletegolf(s), are you writing novel, now???
i did start to write one novel from winter of last year, in Phuket. But i could write just p.35...i should try after this term of AEP course.^^ i'm thinking to got to write in a bungalow(In beachside may be??). Then tell me yours!